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It's been awhile since I have posted much of anything around here.
I hope all of you are well, happy and doing what comes natural.
I have traveled a little ... some business and some pleasure.

I want everyone to know that the messages left on my yahoo and through my e-mail did not go unread.  I got each one and as selfish or unconcerned as it may appeared to some... I was taking care of me and mine.  I do that from time to time.  It's like a protective thing.  Those that know me know this.  I have never asked for anyones approval when I feel that MY time is necessary.  I doubt I ever will.  Been a man in charge too long maybe ...or just knows what works for me better than most.

That being said with no more explanation than that required...

Some of us have made connections over a period of years.  Family situations have been shared among us... grief ... joy .... illness.... you name it ... we have talked it.  Some more than others.

In my case ... I have shared more than I thought I would at times. Bruised ribs, heart stint, Diabetes, grief, heart ache, bruised balls, diabetic neuropathy, addiction and the list could go on. 

I have been sort of on tilt for awhile.  Not feeling like I should.  More than just the seven year itch that some of us get.  And I know that's not just a man thing.  Under my doctors directions ... I have been loaded up with quiet a bit of  Diabetes medications.   The last was a small injection of Insulin daily.  Recently I started staying extremely sleepy and nauseated.  After some more extensive blood test and running numbers .... I have been told that my pancreas appears to not be making any insulin.  That requires me to be classified as a  full blown diabetic and on insulin 3 times a day.  The high levels of sugar in ones blood can start the killing off of internal organs.  seems as those this decided to work on my pancreas.

I have made no bones about the horrendous heart problems within my family.  After some discomfort and monitoring of my heart ... the cardiologist shows concern of the neuropathy causing some un needed issues there. 

I have as recent as yesterday agreed to some test on my heart and pancreas to see where this "sweet blood"  has pissed off the nerve endings.

I talked with Kirsti about this last night and I told her just as I told my sister ... I have fought some pretty BIG bears in my time and came out ok ...  this is no exception.

I apologize for any hurt feelings ....  as soon as my head is wrapped around this ...  hopefully things can be understood ... if not label it  "sweet asshole".

SLW