Wednesday, July 15, 2015

......

 
Yeah, I know I aint nobodys bargain
But, hell, a little touch up and a little paint...
You might need something to hold on to
When all the answers, they don't amount to much
Somebody that you could just to talk to
And a little of that human touch
Baby, in a world without pity
Do you think what I'm askins too much
I just want to feel you in my arms
Share a little of that human touch
 


let's keep it clean ......


Grinz


I'm willing to go just for research purposes of course :) who's with me??? wicked ass grinz.





Sunday, July 12, 2015

Hurt Feelings



Sorry a lil rant... I had my feelings hurt today by the one person that I'd never thought would, well not for THIS reason anyway... people who are together for a long period of time can't go through their lives and not have their ups and downs and its hard not to hurt each other at times.. But the one man who has always told me even on what I think is my ugliest days would always tell me that I was beautiful or gorgeous in his eyes.. We were hanging out with friends and this very and I DO mean very attractive guy came up to me and complimented me, Josh and a friend had gone to the store.. I won't lie grinz I've never been called exquisite before, I thanked the man who complimented me and talked for a while.. then he went about his business. So I never really thought too much more about it till this morning when Josh and I were getting ready to go out for the day. I told him what was said, lol his exact reaction was, "Well the only reason he said that was because he wants to fuck you." You could have slapped me in the face and not shocked me more. I asked him if that's the only reason any man would give me a compliment? Is that what he honestly thought. He backtracked and said he didn't mean it that way but shakes my head, the damage is done. I've always had a shaky self esteem anyway, and he was the one person that never ever ragged me about any of the things i grew up with or dealt with before. He's helped me over come a lot of that, and then after one thoughtless comment, tore a lot of it down.  Not whining but I've never been the lady lol the guys working on things would whistle at or have drinks bought for me in bars, shrugs I'm used to it, the sad thing is I'm NOT used to guys especially ones that look like this guy tell me lol I was exquisite. Sigh oh well, I will get over it but there is a sad heart today.. thanks for listening .. needed to get it out to someone, he knows he hurt my feelings, he asked if I was still mad at him as we were coming home from our outing. I said I was never mad... Just hurt .. 

Friday, July 10, 2015