Sorry a lil rant... I had my feelings hurt today by the one person that I'd never thought would, well not for THIS reason anyway... people who are together for a long period of time can't go through their lives and not have their ups and downs and its hard not to hurt each other at times.. But the one man who has always told me even on what I think is my ugliest days would always tell me that I was beautiful or gorgeous in his eyes.. We were hanging out with friends and this very and I DO mean very attractive guy came up to me and complimented me, Josh and a friend had gone to the store.. I won't lie grinz I've never been called exquisite before, I thanked the man who complimented me and talked for a while.. then he went about his business. So I never really thought too much more about it till this morning when Josh and I were getting ready to go out for the day. I told him what was said, lol his exact reaction was, "Well the only reason he said that was because he wants to fuck you." You could have slapped me in the face and not shocked me more. I asked him if that's the only reason any man would give me a compliment? Is that what he honestly thought. He backtracked and said he didn't mean it that way but shakes my head, the damage is done. I've always had a shaky self esteem anyway, and he was the one person that never ever ragged me about any of the things i grew up with or dealt with before. He's helped me over come a lot of that, and then after one thoughtless comment, tore a lot of it down. Not whining but I've never been the lady lol the guys working on things would whistle at or have drinks bought for me in bars, shrugs I'm used to it, the sad thing is I'm NOT used to guys especially ones that look like this guy tell me lol I was exquisite. Sigh oh well, I will get over it but there is a sad heart today.. thanks for listening .. needed to get it out to someone, he knows he hurt my feelings, he asked if I was still mad at him as we were coming home from our outing. I said I was never mad... Just hurt ..
Hugs ya...
ReplyDeletebeing a man ... I can say with all certainty that we often ... with thought ... jump into a place that we think is a man mode that keeps our soft side hidden and protected. Sometimes it's referred to as testosterone.
ReplyDeleteRegardless of the amount time invested in a relationship... we know that in a blink it can be blown all to hell ... and for being a man ... we have to be territorial. Our resposes come out without thinking of our weaknesses and our lady's feelings.
He knows what he has ... and now it is confirmed he knows someone else knows as well.
Let him kiss that ass a bit ...
huggsss miss trish tight and kisses scotty's cheek and grinz there is no one better at guilt then me.. I just hope that the damage done can undone.. but the groveling is fun to watch ...
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