First, let me say I love the Alphabet game you all are doing. SO creative and you make me laugh. I need that so much right now.
Scott is aware of some serious things going on in my life right now. I need to share them with the rest of you.
My recent PET scan showed multiple nodules in my lungs, consistent with metastatic cancer from my breast cancer. We won't know for sure till I get a special biopsy done next week, but the doctors are 95% sure it is. Prognosis is not that good. I am facing some drastic chemo and who knows what else. No idea how much time I have left. Will depend on how I respond to treatment, but this will take me eventually. I just want enough time to get my family settled and a bit more grown.
I'm not telling you all this for sympathy. Just know why I won't be around as much as before. I'm not going away, just will be scarce. AND.... I will take all the prayers I can get. Tell the big guy my time isn't done yet!
I guess that's about all I have to say. I'm not giving up and will fight with all I have.... it just has to be enough.
Hopefully I will find that inner peace I really need right now.
Keep making me smile......
Now get back to your letters!
Love, Deb
Deb ... I think you know how much this threw me... I can only imagine your concerns and realities.
ReplyDeleteThey say lightening doesn't strike twice in the same spot ... well my heart knows that's not true ... in less than a year.
The saving grace here for me is that unlike Emily ... you have a chance to fight. You have a chance to do whatever you need or want to do.
You showed us last year that you are a fighter. Quiet the woman. I am very impressed.
I know you know that I am here for you on this end. Any day... any time... any circumstance. I think we have made our game plan. I am going no where.
You come on down to TEXAS and let these fellas show you what to do.
You so graciously shared a little something that a friend of your sent to you. I believe it went, "let go ...let God..."
You KNOW my thoughts on that darlin.
Your buddy ...
Deb -
ReplyDeleteMaybe we should go back to the letters "F" and "H"...you must have faith and you can never give up hope. God plays terrible tricks on us at times, but I believe he never gives us more than we can handle. You got through it once..I pray that you can do it again. Remember, those of us here are your friends without faces..if you ever need to just chat..I'll be around funfun0728@yahoo.com
When you walk through the storm; Hold your head up high; And don't be afraid of the dark; At the end of the storm; There's a golden sky; And the sweet silver song of the lark
Walk on, through the wind
Walk on, through the rain
Though your dreams be tossed and blown
Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone
You will be in my prayers...
Trish
For those that say that online is NOT real, the heaviness in my heart of hearing this is undeniably real.
ReplyDeleteI kept up with you Dreamy through a few others. You showed such grace and class as this horrible bastard messed with you. You won. You 'kicked ass and took names' Darlin. Now please show 'em what you really got.
I pretty well think your Texas connections have covered you for many prayers via prayer list. That list is growing by the hour not only for you but for your family as well.
As for Scott.Lee: I have a feeling this is why you called me the other day and caught me at the Nail Salon. I know you had to be so shook by this. You CALL me you fucker!
The original Lit people seem to have a network for all kinds of news. Let us help each other with this. That's what friends are for.
Please let us make you smile Dreamy ~ if even from the side. We care about you and your family.
903-880-7470 use this anytime.
Oh, Dreamy. Your post is perfect for the letter "P". Perspective, Prayer, People...
ReplyDeleteI know I'm kinda new here, both at Lit and even moreso here, and I don't really know you, but I bawled when I read this. I've shared my experiences as to how REAL online is...so don't ever minimize the degree to which you touch others, even here.
Scottie's not just talking from Texas pride either, when he said get down here--Houston, specifically--and let them take care of you. M.D. Anderson's reputation for cancer treatment is global. They're among the best in the world at what they do, and they have an incredible support network for their patients in the Texas Medical Center, which is just a train ride down the street from where I work downtown. You need to know anything about Houston, just ask. My cell is 832-207-2765 and I know for a fact it rings just as well at 3am as it does at 3pm.
I'll be praying for you and your family, Dreamy. There will be many in the Lit community who will, too, Old Lit or not.
All I can so is give you the biggest hugsss I can, and let you know that you are getting my prayers from Virginia.. Know that you are in all our thoughts and we will be tellin the big Guy.. (Not Scotty *winks*) but the one up in the sky to please let you stay with us for a very long time... You are such an awesome lady darlin and one of the best fighters I've ever seen.. dealing with everything thrown at you with a grace and dignity that I will repeat humbles me.. Just know that like the others this is very real to me, and I will do my damndest to help make you smile *winks* ... EVEN if that means giving Scotty shit.. *sigh* its a tough job, but I'll try... huggssss, prayers and much love your way Dreamy one.....
ReplyDeleteDeb,
ReplyDeleteYou have been such a bright light over the years as you've shared your health with us all. I am saddened by this latest news but know that your proven strength, grace and fight will continue as you're on this path.
I will pray for you and your family and send you all the positive thoughts and strength I have inside of me.
May God bless you and watch over you close.
All my best, Kirsti
Dreamy:
ReplyDeleteI haven't know you very long but you're one of the people I want to be like when I grow up. Your grace and humor have alway made me smile and now I'm even more impressed by you.
Prayers, with all the strength I can muster, will be on the way to you from the mountains of NC.
*hugs*
Chrissy